Halloweeeeen

I have this date party thing on Friday. I have decided that I am terrible with boys. 

Also, I need costume ideas. I know that it is two days till time, but I need 'em. 

Any creative people out there?

Break My Heart

"...Break my heart for what breaks Yours."

I love this line... How beautiful is it that our heart can break for one another. What a magnificent gift. I find it another way that we are made in the image of God. His heart breaks for us when we run from him, actually, we truly break His heart. 

My prayer has been for my heart to be broken, that I won't be desensitized to our world. I feel like college can make you pretty numb to sin. It's everywhere and whether you are doing it or not, you become very apathetic to it. So that is my prayer today and everyday, that the Lord would break my heart. I mean, really, what kind of purpose does that give someone?  A Divine purpose. 

Let your heart break. His does. 

Chan

I miss this guy.

He is a stud.

Focus

Today a girl in my Public Speaking class said that energy drinks help maintain focus.... haha! Biggest joke I have ever heard. I don't drink them, but I wish they really worked and then I would drink one... I need it right now.

I had a speech today, a test in BOWLING, yes they give bowling tests, tomorrow. A Public Speaking test Thursday and a Texas History test on Friday. Oh. My. Goodness. 

College has hit... and this morning I was overwhelmed and discouraged, but tonight, I feel a little overwhelmed, but calm. 

God is good, all the time, even during midterms...

Side note: I think I am going to sit back and dwell on exactly how HUGE God is, Wow... sometimes I get dumbfounded by how AWEsome He is. 

Oh and I wanted to say CONGRATS to all of you who ran in the Chicago marathon this past weekend. You all are incredible... I went to the gym a couple of days ago :) haha.

Oh dear.

Well, I don't have long to post today, but I wanted to say one small remark about and organization I have officially joined... College Republicans.

I went to watch the debate with a group of them, but more importantly for extra credit in one of my class, but anyway, I got drafted into joining the club. I'm sure it will work out and not that I can do anything, but this group needs some estrogen. :) 

I have never met more arrogant males who think they have the political world figured out... THEY DON'T!!! Geee whiz. 

So, here I go, feet first, or maybe head first into the weird world of male dominated College Republicans.

Bartlesville

This weekend has been a little bit odd to me. I was sort of sad that I couldn't come home this weekend to see all of the homecoming festivities. It's not that I love Bartlesville football or any of that, but I love fall in Oklahoma. Here in College Station it still feels like summer, and I really miss the cool air in an Oklahoma fall. Other than that I was bummed that I didn't get to see Chandler auctioned off at the baseball fundraiser or see him ride in the parade. The other part I missed was getting to see old friends, but especially Autumn. That girl, oh man, where do I start. She is incredible and we have one of the oddest and most beautiful relationships I have ever seen, let alone possessed. We fight hard, love hard and have a level of honesty in our relationship that is priceless to me. She smacks me back in line when I need it and vice versa. 

Outside of missing people and being sad that I didn't get to see some of Chan's cool stuff, I have had a lot of time to reminisce about high school and where the Lord has brought me to at this point in life. Let me start by saying it is incredible and so obvious where the Lord has brought me from and now placed me. He truly saved me from some situations and blessed me in others. God is good, if only I could remember to FULLY trust Him in the midst of life not just in hindsight. 

So, if you're in Bartlesville reading this, know that I am thinking of home and all of the wonderful people and memories that I have made there. I have become exceedingly more grateful for that random little oil town in Northeastern Oklahoma. Oh and you could be praying for some cool weather down here, haha!

My Biggest Fans

This past weekend my family came and saw me, which was so great! Besides being a totally poor college kid and enjoying a little bit of pampering :), it was very refreshing.

When I got out of Baby Ruth's at Pine Cove, I realized that I was kind of roaming the state of Texas all alone. My family was in Bartlesville, and I was traveling all over the place. There were about three days that I felt so alone and just bummed out. Through those three days I started a journey of truly realizing the importance of family. Sure, I have always adored my parents and little brother, but this took it to a new level. The whole idea of the family unit became so clear to me and so special. I realized how blessed I am to have the supportive parents I have who trust me and love me unconditionally. 

I love seeing my parents because they are walking right along side me in this journey. They are so encouraging and uplifting and simply fun to be around. I love just sitting and watching a movie with them or talking about life. They are my biggest fans and I am so grateful for them.

I guess the point of me writing this is that if you have a kid or kids who maybe don't seem to get some of things that you are teaching them right now in life, whether it be elementary, junior high or high school, give them a month in college and they will understand it all. I daily see things that they were trying to teach me. Things like consistency, hard work and contentment. I have a long way to go and I mess up a lot, but I know that besides God, my parents will always be there for me. 

Clique? Well, I'm just starting life on my own and suddenly the clique becomes very profound.

Family, what a gift from God!