Well it's about time...

I've been thinking about writing a blog for quite awhile. I have lots of thoughts constantly floating through my mind, but I never can seem to get them put together long enough to jot them down. Today, I had one of those days when you know what's wrong... or how you feel.

Today, I just want to see Jesus. I want to be in heaven with Him.

I have always felt a little down on life, in every stage I always feel like there is something more, that this isn't it. I know it isn't... my soul tells me so. It doesn't just tell me... IT SCREAMS. I have a wonderfully blessed life. A wonderful family, great friends and more opportunities than I could ask for. I dreamed of attending Texas A&M since I was 6, and I do. I prayed for friends who could challenge me and share my heart, and I do.

My struggle is more that I still see heaven... I still see more.

The Lord is refining me to see this place as an opportunity to be apart of something that is not finished. Heaven is there, it is forever. Sometimes, I need more of a temporary perspective rather than an eternal one... and yet they are synonymous.

Week 6

So, my first week of camp ended less than 24 hours ago and the next week begins in about 2 hours. Time here flies on the weekends and it is a challenge at times to get recharged. 

I had a great week full of wonderful 2nd and 3rd graders, lots of yelling, pool time and blistered toes. Totally worth it though!

I had a 2nd grader named Morgan who is a total fireball. So much fun and takes DAYS to tie her shoes, but it didn't matter. Being here is not about me or my time, it's about this....

It's about getting to be the first one to know that she has decided to accept Jesus into her heart and getting the privilege of helping her tell her parents. It was such an honor. Her dad cried and spun her around. Those are the moments that you could care less about how long it took her to tie her shoes. That's what being here is all about... Loving on kids only because Christ has loved you. 

I could tell you a thousand funny stories about what they say, but it really doesn't matter. Eternity matters. Hearts matter. 

Here I come Week 7... Father use me.

Call it Selfish, but it's My Time

My whole life I have struggled with time management and sometimes I see the light on my struggle.

Being home this summer has been really good and I am really learning how important time is. Like my post below this, I indicated that at camp I have 144 hours to be intentional with sweet little lives. The same applies to being at home. I don't get a lot of time here in Bartlesville very often, so now that I have it, I treasure it.

I treasure it so much that I am having a hard time giving it away, and honestly, I am OKAY with that. So, I apolgize if I don't go to a party or stop by a social gathering, it's nothing personal. I get 2 more weeks with my precious family and that's about where my time is going. I have a little brother who is growing up so fast and its hard to keep up with him, but I know that making an effort to try and keep up with him is well worth it.

I want to stay as connected to the people that will always be here for me and always love me. My family is my priority and I have 2 weeks to get to know them a little better than I already do.

2 Weeks. Go.

144

In three weeks I get the privelege of serving God in a very unique way. Camp. I am determined to not be apart of the clique statement of being "a Christian camp counselor." At A&M and other places too, everyone is expected to work at camp and do that "Christian college kid camp thing." I refuse. I don't think that camp is to be joked about in that fashion. I am given the lives of 8 little girls for 6 days. 144 hours.

I have been calculating how many hours that I have in order to give myself perspective. In our lives 144 hours is a blink. I have a "blink" to show these girls how much their Father in Heaven loves them. Challenging? I think YES!

It is such a blessing to be given the trust that Pine Cove is blessing me with. I feel honored to get to serve 6-11 year olds. I must admit, that Satan was really try to tell me that I just wasn't good enough to work with older kids, WHAT A STUPID LIE. Anywhere the Lord puts you is not "below" you and not a place where He cannot work. You can pray that the devil stays away and stops telling me things to get me away from my goal. Which is the fact that I have 144 hours.

Top 10- Cambridge by Caleb Ryon

Caleb Ryon's Top 10 things I am going to miss about living at the Cambridge

10. The food, all you can eat between the hours of 7a and 7p

9. Sneaking up behind Abby-Lane Barnes and scaring her

8. The parking lot because it is not a parking garage

7. You don't have to drive to see you friends, you can just walk

6. "Studying" with Dave Linhart until 3:45a in the study room

5. Walking into Brandon, David and Justin's room whenever I want like I own the place

4. Pool Basketball

3. Waking Will Stockdale up by scaring him

2. Unlimited Meal Plan

1. All the people that I won't get to see everyday anymore... Boo Hoo Boo Hoo 

Top 10- Kate

Top 10 Reasons I will Miss Kate this Summer:

10. My room will most definitely be a wreck ALL THE TIME

9. I won't have an errand buddy

8. I won't have anyone in the room with me at night to laugh our butts off about really stupid things

7. I will have to supply my own toilet paper

6. I will probably get fat, because no one will be telling me how many calories I am consuming

5. There will be no one to Facebook chat with 2 feet away from me

4. I won't have anyone to pester when I am in a really onry mood 

3. No one will start singing a song about whatever I say, even if it is about cleaning my room or being "wishy-washy"

2. I won't have anyone to pester about politics

1. I won't have anyone to share clothes with. :(

Top 10- Friends

The top 10 things I love about having best girlfriends:

10. Always having people to call when I am on the long 9 hour trek home

9. Watching ridiculous TV shows and thinking that they are the coolest thing ever... aka, The Hills, Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill and The Bachelor

8. Going away from one another and coming back talking for hours about every boy we saw and thing we did while eating either snow cones, ice cream or something else really fattening. 

7. Going shopping with each other and telling each other, "YOU DON'T NEED THAT"

6. Having a support system to call when you need to vent or need advice

5. People to procrastinate studying with!

4. Making each other sweet gifts and letters before we all leave each other for the summer. 

3. Committing to pray for one another this summer and wearing matching bracelets as a reminder. 

2. Being able to love on them and do fun little things for one another.

1. Having girls who love Jesus and are seeking Him just like me and being able to center our relationships around Him!